Why Must I Fall Again?

Why must I fall again?

Why must my core be so vulnerable?

Why must every look she gives me

Be so redolent of pain

Of sorrow

Of chances lost

The deep pit of hellish emotion

Cannot be negotiated by youths

with hearts unblemished

novices of treading loves

murky waters

This stark realization bludgeons my senses

As I try deliriously to find my soul mate

Such a visceral experience, unique

In power In rapidity 

In foolishness I am the blundering jester

Traipsing around the world in search of love

In search of companionship

In search of a healing heart that will alleviate the pain

All the scarring turmoil

I have ever felt

and that will be in need of me as well 

poster's note: this was originally written by rots28, he sent it to me and i made some suggestions he thought i changed enough that it was co-written